Conscious or Unconscious Anger
Your unsophisticated ways of handling Rage
UNCONSCIOUS USE OF ANGER:
- Repress your anger. (Enter denial, the self-created delusion that you are not angry. Just don't go there.)
- 'Cathart' your anger. ('Catharsis' is when you throw your anger away, as if anger is a 'bad' feeling, trying to 'calm down' and get some 'relief', instead of discerning whether your anger is a Feeling or an Emotion, and then Cathect your anger. 'Cathexis', in this example, means to direct and apply this precious resource of anger appropriately.)
- Sloppily project your anger onto someone else. ("Here you take it! It's about you! This is your fault!")
CONSCIOUS USE OF ANGER:- Create a container where your anger can be expressed in a safe way with consent. In the case of rage, use it to inform you that now might be a time to make a boundary, to say what you are afraid of saying, to ask for what you want, to say "No!" or "Stop it now!", to create something that has never been created, to go beyond imaginary limits where you have never gone before, to make moves, to explore, to speak out. In other words, use your mind to do something intelligent with your anger.
What if you are sitting on evolutionary rocket fuel and you don't know how to pilot a starship...Rage is the passion that shows me exactly where to step.Rage roots me deep into my commitment.Rage stabilizes me in a place where I might be prone to getting pulled into addictive behaviors and thought forms that do not serve my hearts devotion.Rage as a pure white hot anchor, pulls me to center, pierces through the distortions that might blow me off track.Rage was in my body from being in an abusive relationship and made my body physically ill and using the passion of the NO inside that Rage to cut the enmeshed ties and literally PUSH the illness out of my body by severing the energetic chords keeping me tied to harm. After nearly a year of chronic illness, recovered almost completely over night after a deep ceremony of utilizing the energy of rage.Rage as a supreme righteousness that took action where there was injustice. On the outside I was extremely calm, steady and grounded. Inside the fire was FLAMING with the Rage of injustice. That Rage gave immense steadfastness. I would NOT quit until justice was served. The Rage was pure white hot power. It was total and absolute. It moved mountains. Justice was eventually served.Experiments
Experimenting means to practice simple skills that build together into greater competence.
Competence to one woman seems like magic to another.
Magic is competence in an uncommon dimension.
Do SPARK107: Your anger about a thing is the fuel you are given to change that thing.
Matrix Code CONANGER.01
Dive over to SPARK107 and do all the Experiments there.
After you do those Experiments, come back here and do the 2 Parts of this Experiment:
- Choose a small energetic, physical, intellectual thing and use less than 10% intensity Conscious Anger to change that things to make it better. Write into your Beep! Book your Experiment and the outcome after a couple of days.
- Choose a larger thing such as an agreement, a plan, an assumption, an old decision, a story that you hold about yourself, and use up to 25% intensity of your Conscious Anger to make it better. Write into your Beep! Book your Experiment and the outcome after a couple of days.
Use Your Conscious Anger To Do Something At The Edge Of Your Box
Matrix Code CONANGER.02
Use Your Conscious Anger to Give Your Gremlin A New Job To Do For You
Matrix Code CONANGER.03
Use Your Conscious Anger to Do A New Practice Or A New Intensity Of Practice For One Whole Week
Matrix Code CONANGER.04
Use Your Conscious Anger To Change A Story About Someone Else
Matrix Code CONANGER.05
Use Your Conscious Anger To Write An Article
Matrix Code CONANGER.06
Use Your Conscious Anger To Take A Stand For Your Project
Matrix Code CONANGER.07
Use Your Conscious Anger To Clean Up Physical Mess
Matrix Code CONANGER.08
Use Your Conscious Anger To Clean Up An Energetic Mess
Matrix Code CONANGER.09
Use Your Conscious Anger To Become Less Of A Zombie
Matrix Code CONANGER.10
Study the Zombies website with your Beep! Book at hand, making notes about anything you are up to that would tend to make you appear as if or behave as if you are a Zombie. Pay particular attention to anything you might be doing to imitate Zombieness so that the 'powerful' 'authoritative' patriarchal Zombies around you are fooled into thinking you are enough like them that they do not have to 'kill' you.
Choose one of your adaptive Zombie-camouflage behaviors.
Use your Conscious Anger to change that behavior to be a step more towards being your natural self instead of being your adaptive self pretending to be a Zombie so as not to be noticed as being different from the Zombies. Stand your ground. Keep breathing. Notice that you do not have to go against anything in order to be a free-standing Being.
